You'll be fine. You're mature enough to handle everything that would come to your way. Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don't avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You'll be okay. Even if you don't feel okay all the time.

There's a difference between goodbye and letting go. Goodbye is "I'll see you again when I'm ready to hold your hand and when you're ready to hold mine." Letting go is "I'll miss your hand. I realized it's not mine to hold, and I will never hold it again.."

We all get addicted to something that takes the pain away. So I got addicted to you. I understand that at times you use me, and you can be completely careless of my feelings. But at times you make me feel so incredible, like you are the one that I should spend the rest of my life with. I don't know why I keep forgiving for all of the trouble that you cause me, I deserve better. But here is the thing, you have the potential to be so great. And I don't want to lose you. Maybe I don't want anything better, because in the end of the night, you are the only thing in my mind.

"I had to stop myself from falling for him. 
He and I were lines, drawn by different pencils, formed by different hands. He was a smooth and straight line, one without curves or jagged edges, a line that was almost perfect, a line you would be sure enough to infinitely extend. I was a much different line. I wasn't perfectly straight. I'd been redrawn many times and my different strokes overlapped one another. I had rough texture, sharp edges and drawn by a sloppy hand but somehow, someway we had met at some point. We were no longer parallel lines, we were intersecting lines-crossed at one point but never meant to meet again. That's what I needed us to be. I needed us to never meet again. But as hard as I try to resist, I couldn't deny that the urge was still there. Something inside me wanted his lips locked with mine, his hands fidgeting with my hair, the taste of his tongue as he started to take in the whole of me. He was right. I had lost myself in him. I wasn't the tough, indurated 'me' that I had built over the years. All along I was in control of my emotions, trying my best to get my head in the game all the time, doing my best to be careful. All along I built up walls around me to protect myself from the possible hurt and pain this sadistic world had to offer only to be torn down by somebody I detested, somebody I should be detesting, someone I shouldn't be falling in love with. The sudden thought of him was enough to send my heart skipping beats." -- Lauren, STEEL (Aurum Trilogy Book 1)

“ You had me hoping for something that only exists on the mere pages of a book.“

Just keep holding on. 

Falling asleep is either the hardest part of the day, or the easiest. We either desire it or repulse it. We need the day to be longer, or we need it to start over. Either way, we will all be asleep soon. Not to be bothered by the chaos of our lives, but swimming peacefully in our dreams.

Let's run away together, away from the city lights, where no one knows our names yet. And we can see the stars at night, we'll camp out in the open, warming cold skin by the fire, tell each other hopes and dreams, and all of our desires. We'll own nothing more than we need, watch sunrises colour the sky. Learn what we're really here for, away from society's eyes, this journey will be scary, but we'll leave without a plan. And I know it will be alright, as long as you're holding my hand.

I am falling way too hard, all at once. I'm going to crash and burn. I'll be engulfed in flames of desire, I'll be tattered in bruises; sky blue hue to green of envy. But maybe I'll like it, because maybe you're worth it.