I never imagined "the last time" would come. I assumed there would be more or that it would last forever. But fate steps in to play its part, and god knows I'm powerless to intervene. Then I realized I didn't have "forever." The war begins between the desires of the heart and the rationality of the mind; above that, I must make a decision.
My desire is that we can add the "one mores." They'll last a lifetime, and I'll never have to elaborate why I let you go. Forever is never mine, and there are no more "one mores," so I tried fighting fate and changing the ending, but I eventually surrendered and gathered all my puzzles after months of pleading.
I can't stay still any longer because my extreme hesitancy is holding me back and sending me on an emotional roller coaster. I have to choose between "letting go" and "holding on," but either way I lose. Life goes on, everyone moves on, but I can't recall anyone except that one soul I adored. Every step I take, every move I make is leading me to a specific point in my life. I'm completely disoriented. I lost everything, but my heart remains hopeful even when it is shaken. My heart is leading me, which I don't want because it will take me back to the point in my life where my pain began.
Lujain
